Well, I think I've gotten over the break-up, at least most of it. There are things I will never be able to let go of, but for the most part, I feel it's time to move on. Who knows what will happen? Though, all I know is that I am going to decide for myself whatever makes me happy, and I know a certain someone that has been making me feel that way since I started talking to her ^w^ <3

Maybe not going to hop right into a relationship right away, but I do like her, a lot. I'm just happy to know her and be her friend. ^w^

If you are reading this, and you know who you are babe, I really love you. You've made my life worth living for. This last year has been the hardest I've ever had to go through, and it isn't over yet. I had my first real suicidal thoughts, just thoughts though... I don't think i could ever really pull something like that off. I've been so stressed, anger and hate spiral in my mind. Now, I am at a calm. I know now that at least someone in this world loves me back. I don't feel so alone anymore.

Besides all that lovey dovey stuff, I've been working more on pure digital artwork instead of just going over my pencil works. Poses are coming in nice, though, along with that, I think I need to focus on the proportions that compliment whatever pose they are in. So I think I'm going to just draw up some bases and see what everyone thinks. I think my characters' heads turn out a little bigger than I'd like.

As for the outlines and overall boldness of the lineart, I am having some major trouble with that I would like to find out how people are able to make them come out looking smooth. I've tried using a bigger size canvas and brush but the lines just do not come out looking right. ;_;

Coloring, now that is where things get fun. I've always loved coloring books, I'd be one of those rebellious children that would color a Pikachu Pink with Purple cheeks. Guess coloring in my own drawings really doesn't make me a rebel anymore, but it still is fun! Shading comes easy to me as well. Same as my pencil shading, I just create a layer on top of the rest of the colors, use black, and change the opacity. Not sure if that's just lazy of me or smart, but whatever works!

Anyways, as for real life stuff, its still frustrating and i really hate being in the position I am in right now. Anyone in my situation would have lost the same amount of hope that I have had, or probably even committed suicide by now after they added up everything they have lost in life. Over the course of 5 years, after i graduated High School, everything that I have worked so hard to obtain, is now gone.

I haven't given up though, it's just, I have lost so much hope, and it continues to gradually decrease as shit keeps happening. Though, when you hit rock bottom, the only way you can go is UP. Nobody is going to come down this hole with me, but I know they are willing to help me get out of it.

Well, that's about whats going on lately! Thanks for reading! Love ya all! <3